Settled down

I'm too busy in my new life to keep posting in this blog so I'm afraid this will be my last post. I moved out of the city into a island home and its open as the eye can see, I got a dog from the shelter which I can relate to the caged feeling and now it has acres of land to run and named it kirsten since it sorta reminds me of her. I am a artist, I like painting places in spots of world barly anyone gets to see because of there caged lives and I travel the world to remote places and somtimes old citys so I can paint the landscape in person. Maybe one day I will be famous and people will get a glimpise outside the doll house.

Big city isnt all what it seems

 

 I got to the busy part of the city, you know lights and high building everywhere it was a thrill at first but soon I realized it was too much. It was fats, crowded and you can loss your self in it and nearly impossible to keep a job as a women being payed less and everything and now I relize what my friend was talking about, it realy must have been hard on her and at the time it was only about me. Now I have been picking up odd jobs here and there prety much any I can get, somtimes I think I should have stayed but then it would have been all a lie. Ita hard to find myself in this world of chaos but I'm starting slowly realize my place or me for that matter, its time to find my passion and a job for that matter that I enjoy, wish me luck.

First stop candy store!

I took all your advice into consideration, I learned he didnt even love me just the idea of being in love. We were living a lie with complet strangers, it was like living in a doll house of make belive. I left him to find my self, I sat him down and told him how I felt but I hope he figures it out soon himself but it also feels like a little baby song bird being in a small closed off small world then one day mom bird pushes you from the nest and just have to learn fast or its over and your prey to the world below. I'm lving with a friend but I should move on I have cause enough trouble, but at last I'm not living a lie and living my life how I want expecally controlling your cholate in take. Now I can go into a candy store and get favrote cholates, which are Macroons mhmm if you dont know what they are your missing out. Speaking of which I bought whole box load, and not being allowed them and sneaking them I couldnt resist eating a whole box!

Help! Husband problems what to do?

You may have noticed from my past post's my husband can be abit controlling and I may have been hiding stuff from him, but I need help now I think he's going to find out about the biggest secret I kept from him. You know the one about saving his life and where I got the money, should I keep hiding it? Should I tell him but, what if his reaction is bad? I mean when was it against the law to save your husband? Why should he be mad it was for his own good, but I dont see him taking it lightly. Krogstad is black mailing me and I dont think my husband is going to lisen and let Krogstad have that postion or work there at all, my friend which keeping secret for privicy reasons but she said she would take car of it but I'm not so sure. I was debating on leaving my kids but I swear its best for all of us plus the maid will be there taking care of them like she always has plus she would be  better at it then I would ever be. What should I do? what would you do in that sitation?

Husband doesnt have a clue :p

I cant belive my friend, she thinking I have nothing to feel proud of! Mean why'll I saved my husbands life and all by myself if thats not somthing to be proud of then I dont know what is, yes she Questions me like I did somthing stupid! Maybe I'm not as smart as her and make some errors but shes my friend she shouldnt think that way, but enough about her. I got to play with my children what fun, dont you think so? My husband still doesnt know about me saving his life but its for the best right, plus I'm paying it off as far as I know. Somtimes I sneak Macaroons in my house, somtimes its a thrill and a little tast of rebellion against my husband. Its not like I lie that much and plus what you dont know doesnt hurt you. Time to go must decorate the house what a surprise it will be for the kids, bye!